This saturday....which is like, 3 days away is the day that I have my driving exam. I am quite nervous. I failed the first exam, which I wasn't to worried about because aparantly only 1 in 6 actually get through the first time. But it's been two months now and I have alot more driving experience and have improved alot and am confident in my driving and I believe I honestly have a chance to get it this time, which in a way makes it even more nerve racking. I know that id I fail it this time I'm going to feel like the biggest loser and I will be very upset. But I really want to get my license. I'm so over lessons. They're so expensive. To be honest I spend more on lessons every week then I will on fuel when I finally get my car, which I might add is probably a whole year away. *sigh*. I'm trying not to think about it much.

This morning my dad woke me up realy early (5.30am) so we could go and get some practise. I havn't been driving with my dad in a few weeks because his ute died a few weeks ago and I had to wait until he got his new vehicle. So today I got to drive the Hilux for the first time and the first lesson in a new vehicle is always really scary. It takes some time to get use to a different vehicle. But I got so nervous because I stalled it once and my dad yelled at me and i went to start the truck and because i was freaking out at my dad yelling at me I stalled it again and then my dad yelled more and send if I did it one more time that i'd be out of the vehicle and heading home (this was withing the first 5 minutes). I wanted to cry. I felt more nervous about driving after this mornings lesson. The lesson was a bit crazy for the first 15 minutes, but then my dad calmed down and it got a bit better. I have 3 more mornings of lessons with him and hopefully I can prove that I'm a good driver to my dad and he won't get angry at me.

well I'm at work and I have work to do *shock*.