So last night I went to a girls meeting at my old church. I felt a bit strange at first, because I hardley see them anymore and I actually felt shy…which is weird since I use to go there for like 10 years. But it’s the first event at my old church that I’ve been to where I felt totally out of place. Everyone was talking about all these engagement parties, weddings, birthday parties and social outings that I hadn’t been involved in, therefore I couldn’t offer anything to most of the conversations.

Of course it was great catching up with people. My friend Angie* was there, which was really awesome to see her back at church.

And it also was awesome because my cousin was one of the preachers and she did a really good job. I could tell she was nervous, but she was good.

I will be going to a hip-hop concert there next weekend and I’m excited about that. Hopefully I’ll get to chat to Donna. She sent me a really lovely msg the other night about missing me and stuff and I felt like crying, but I was happy at the same time.

I miss my friends so badly. And it’s also hard knowing that the only time I can see them is when I go to events at my old church. Most of them are so busy and wrapped up in church activities that they don’t have time for anything else. They were suppose to have Saturdays off, but I havn’t been involved with any of them on a Saturday yet, so I’m not sure what’s happening. Maybe I’m just not wanted around anymore. I would like to go to more events at my old church, but my parents only let me go every now and then. If only there were more social things, the sky is the limit when it comes to being allowed to go.

If any of you guys are reading this. Donna*, Katia*, Georgina*, Nicola*…. I really miss you guys and most of the time I may make it out that it’s my choice to visit your church, but it’s not. It’s not my choice. So I’m sorry for not being around so much.

And Nicola* I miss you most of all, because I havn’t gotten a chance to really talk to you in months. I will really miss you when you go to the Army.

God Bless you all!

*names were changed in this post.